lonely in the midst of 20 people

am i the only one who prefers to be alone at parties? its weird. like, im a total party animal, but if it gets to a point where the focus isnt on me, id much prefer to sneak off to a corner somewhere and daydream. i swear on James Michael that I’m not antisocial. most my friends would testify to the exact oppoisite. i guess i just like being by myself…in the middle of parties? odd, i know. also, today was the first day of my new job. it was pretty intense, 8 hours straight of folding shirts and sorting through skate gear with ONE 15-minute break. I thinkI’m going to like it. Im usually going to be assigned to the childrens store though. that will be fun. mothers are more likely tobuy things for their children than they are for themselves anyways. cant wait.so yeah. im at a party. its 1 am. And im holed up in the hosts room with her laptop writing on my blog. yep, im definately cool alright.

but im going to have to go out to the party soon.

and pretend not to be angry or upset.

i may be a bitch, but im not that selfish. im not going to screw up someone elses birthday party. so i guess im going back out there now. not that they seem to miss me much, yay,

why cant writing research papers be this easy?

love, kisses, and arsenic.